I am at an indecision of what to do for the summer. For the past few weeks I have been planning on going to Lawrence and staying with my sister and brother in law while working some place temporarily to earn some moolah. Now that it is coming closer to the time that I am supposed to be leaving, it makes much more sense for me to just stay in Emporia with my parents and prepare for the rest of my schooling etc. It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about how important the decisions I make are and how much they will affect the rest of my life. Why must I have so much responsibility on my shoulders? They don't affect only me, but everyone who I come in contact with. Sometimes I just wish I didn't have to worry about any of this.